back at work!

im back to the office after 2 days MC....BORING!! if only, i could just sit n play with lil aniq all day long..i dont have the heart to work!! im just plain lazy!! i wana be a housewife, but i know we cant afford!! ive been thinking, wat if, i decide to become a housewife and at the same time earn income as a babysitter?? the $$ is quite ok for me...i'll charge 500-600 for everyday pick-up, 7.00am-7.00pm....600-800 for weekends pick-up, 50-80 per day for weekends/emergency care...easy money you know.....hehehehehe

i guess i'll do just that when we move to our own place!! can B??!! im tired of working and not spending QUALITY time with my growing kids...especially Danish...he's been away for too long!! eversince he was 4mths old, ive already passed him to his babysitter. And now, he is turning 3 by Jan09!! Just imagine, nearly 3 years ive not seen he's every growth!! Everytime when i see him, he's already clever in doing something...im not the 1st person to notice wat he has learnt....i miss both my kids TOOO much!! Not spending proper time with them makes me feel guilty. Its as if ive not brought them up properly...

Even when i see both of the my kids during the weekends, we wont be going out together. We would always be cooped up in the house either cause B working or im just plain tired to go out!! working 11hours for 5 days tire me out...when it comes to weekends, i'll always think of SLEEP!! am i a good mother??? am i?? i dont think so.......

anyway, B's 23rd Birthday is TOMORROW!! like ive said before, celebrations will only be done on Saturday 27th Sept!! B's cake should be ready by then!! YIPPPEEE!! 1st time birthday surprise for B!! i cant wait to see his reaction!! Hope he likes it!! BUT i still have not decided what to cook!! ARRRGGGHHH!!